How do you compile a list of wishes and dreams that isn’t simply another person’s dreams already fulfilled?
I have so many dreams. Dream destination weddings, dream vacations, dream clients. But I also have reality. I have a real family with two very real little children and a real husband, real parents and in-laws, most at least 8 hours away. I know that there is a place for dreaming and chasing dreams and I live in the place as often as possible. I also believe that my dreams are sometimes sleeping in the next room, or lying (albeit rather squirmishly) next to me on the couch.
My greatest dream is to do what I love WITH the people I love. I want to travel the world WITH MY FAMILY. (okay so not all the time, but a lot) I want to be sitting next to my husband on a train laughing about how Lily skipped through the mirrored halls of Versailles like she always knew she should. I want to sprawl on the cool ground of the desert in Joshua Tree WAAAAAAY past bedtime and stare into the sky while William studies the stars he loves so much.
But, you see, in my dreams I’m also cheering from the audience at a poorly produced Christmas pageant, and dotting flour on noses beneath warm kitchen lights while a little girl snags an extra fingertip full of that yummy dough. I’m traveling to familiar places that smell like second homes and sound like my beating heart. My dreams often bring me right back to where I am or where I’ve been, and who I am.
I AM HUMAN. I am sooooo very human. I let my wildest dreams bring me guilt and my present reality bring me jealousy. But I refuse to let my dreams exist only in the latest hours and by the light of my trusty Notes app. I have plenty of “baggage” if you will…but I hear they let you check your bags these days 😉
My WILDEST dreams (right this second):
*Paris in spring
*NYC in fall
*Shoot something EPIC in Colorado while we are there this summer
*Sunrise elopement on the coast
*Go on an African safari
*Put on a huge, overly expensive gown and dance through the halls of a French chateau
My BIGGEST goals (right this second):
*travel a lot and shoot everywhere like I live there
*write more openly and without hesitation
*finally get my personal project going
*put more time into making dreams happen